The Self Improvement Treadmill

I ran for years

Through my twenties,

Thirties

Half of my forties

Chasing more

The next breakthrough

The next upgrade

The next better version of me 

I read the books

I followed the programmes

I mastered the routines

I became more disciplined

More productive

More worthy

More confident 

The treadmill promised more 

So I kept trying harder 

Until

One day I realised 

That the treadmill wasn’t taking me anywhere

After all this time 

So 

I stepped off

And slowed down

I let my feet touch the earth

I took a deep breath 

And I remembered

That my life is not a race

That there is nothing to win

That there is nowhere else to be

Except 

Right here 

As fully as possible

Right now

Exactly as I am

By Tanya Cameron